God's love

While i was running yesterday, i talked to God a little haha~ i was asking Him whether i should choose a guy that loves me a lot or should i choose a guy who can meet my material needs and is a good boyfriend material. i was thinking and thinking until suddenly i felt God spoke to me 3 words: Love surpasses all. Even though i do have doubts whether its my own thinking since my bf is not a christian yet but somehow, i just want to believe that it was God who said those words to me.

these words seem to stable my heart and helps me to focus back into one path so that my eyes no longer stray. Because of this, somehow, he has come back to the same position he held in my heart when we were first together.(or maybe slightly lesser still haha) i am glad with myself claps claps*

Not to forget, we were discussing about God that day and while i always say God brought me to him so that he can be so blessed (HAHAHA), but when he suddenly told me maybe God brought him to me instead, his words set me thinking. Maybe its true cause God always wanted to bring him back to His kingdom and heal him of all his sufferings. And i was really happy because i believe God has made him realise that God loves him and that he was not abandoned despite the sufferings that God put him through since young. I also believe that he is a really blessed child of God coz despite a dysfunctional family, he grew up with the right moral values and character. And even though i always pity him when he talks about his background, i am always glad somehow because God has actually put other people in his life to bless him indirectly.

i really hopy one day we will be able to rise up spiritually in God's kingdom together. =)

current mood: sad

suddenly feel like blogging cause i am feeling emo~

i am really sad that some people don't spare a thought for my feelings sometimes. i am willing to go an extra mile for my friens and be inconvenienced for the benefit of them. This is because God tells me so. i just hope that people will not take me for granted and will spare a thought for how i feel. i guess i am only human and do need people to care about me.


i feel bad about blogging this but i really need to let it out since i can't and i dont't want to confide in anyone. Sometimes i am really angry when ppl don't take on their responsibilities and tasks given to them. i know that maybe some of us are extremely busy so i will try to understand. but there is always a limit to how much ppl can tolerate including me. I always stand by my principles and believe that if you can't be a leader, u have to be a good follower. When tasks are given to u, u have to finish it,no matter how busy u are because u choose to have all these committments. i will understand if u can't do more, but at least do your part. Is that very hard?

i am sorry that i cant be like some of my friends who will even extend a helping hand to do what she is supposed to do. but somehow i feel that when it comes to academics, this is how i am like. i really dislike free-riders. its ok that u don't want contribute more, but i don think its too much to ask for for u to do your own part.

love bank

i do believe what pastor kong has preached recently regarding relationships and the love bank theory. i do believe that even when you are together with someone, someone else can still deposit love units into your love bank.


but what's important is the person whom u are together with must share the highest love bank account with you and it should constantly increase also. that is why i will continue to build up this love bank account i have wif my dear so that i won't allow myself to let anyone else take over his place.

I don't know if God wants me to be together with him and maybe i haven really seek Him with all my heart and soul to find the answer. But as a gf, i promise i will never do anything to hurt my dear.

Because i understand the meaning of love and therefore i will treasure his love despite how he has sometimes failed to meet my expectations, made me sad, made me angry and made me disappointed.


1 Cor 13: 4-8 : Beautiful verses of Love=)

a very lucky girl

i am really envious of this girl. i know her but i think she doesn't know me. we are in the same class for one of the modules this semester. but i know her before this. and i have never talked to her. Every week when i see her, i always think she is really normal. but yet i am envious of her =(

somehow i think because she is so simple, God gave her something so good in return. More than anything else, i think she is a really lucky girl.