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my mum asked me today

If someone standing in front of you right now is somebody despicable, irritating, annoying, terribly horrible, dislikable, are u able to love that person like how God loves him or her? Are you able to look beyond his or her flaws to see him or her as a unique person that comes from God's beautiful creation?

i chuckled a little and as my mum i think she knows the answer is no.

God seems to be always giving me a discipline talk through my mum by the little things she say. And i always realise, understand and learn.

i promise i will change. its not easy but i will try

love peace and joy

Love Peace and Joy: the three words that appeared the most number of times in the Bible. Most christian know and have love and peace. But most christians lack true joy in their lives. We are always stressed by school, people, exams, work, and even church. i feel that God wants us to slow down sometimes, put our worries behind us, and focus on NOW. Treasure the time u have NOW and enjoy whatever u are doing NOW.

God's love

While i was running yesterday, i talked to God a little haha~ i was asking Him whether i should choose a guy that loves me a lot or should i choose a guy who can meet my material needs and is a good boyfriend material. i was thinking and thinking until suddenly i felt God spoke to me 3 words: Love surpasses all. Even though i do have doubts whether its my own thinking since my bf is not a christian yet but somehow, i just want to believe that it was God who said those words to me.

these words seem to stable my heart and helps me to focus back into one path so that my eyes no longer stray. Because of this, somehow, he has come back to the same position he held in my heart when we were first together.(or maybe slightly lesser still haha) i am glad with myself claps claps*

Not to forget, we were discussing about God that day and while i always say God brought me to him so that he can be so blessed (HAHAHA), but when he suddenly told me maybe God brought him to me instead, his words set me thinking. Maybe its true cause God always wanted to bring him back to His kingdom and heal him of all his sufferings. And i was really happy because i believe God has made him realise that God loves him and that he was not abandoned despite the sufferings that God put him through since young. I also believe that he is a really blessed child of God coz despite a dysfunctional family, he grew up with the right moral values and character. And even though i always pity him when he talks about his background, i am always glad somehow because God has actually put other people in his life to bless him indirectly.

i really hopy one day we will be able to rise up spiritually in God's kingdom together. =)

current mood: sad

suddenly feel like blogging cause i am feeling emo~

i am really sad that some people don't spare a thought for my feelings sometimes. i am willing to go an extra mile for my friens and be inconvenienced for the benefit of them. This is because God tells me so. i just hope that people will not take me for granted and will spare a thought for how i feel. i guess i am only human and do need people to care about me.


i feel bad about blogging this but i really need to let it out since i can't and i dont't want to confide in anyone. Sometimes i am really angry when ppl don't take on their responsibilities and tasks given to them. i know that maybe some of us are extremely busy so i will try to understand. but there is always a limit to how much ppl can tolerate including me. I always stand by my principles and believe that if you can't be a leader, u have to be a good follower. When tasks are given to u, u have to finish it,no matter how busy u are because u choose to have all these committments. i will understand if u can't do more, but at least do your part. Is that very hard?

i am sorry that i cant be like some of my friends who will even extend a helping hand to do what she is supposed to do. but somehow i feel that when it comes to academics, this is how i am like. i really dislike free-riders. its ok that u don't want contribute more, but i don think its too much to ask for for u to do your own part.

love bank

i do believe what pastor kong has preached recently regarding relationships and the love bank theory. i do believe that even when you are together with someone, someone else can still deposit love units into your love bank.


but what's important is the person whom u are together with must share the highest love bank account with you and it should constantly increase also. that is why i will continue to build up this love bank account i have wif my dear so that i won't allow myself to let anyone else take over his place.

I don't know if God wants me to be together with him and maybe i haven really seek Him with all my heart and soul to find the answer. But as a gf, i promise i will never do anything to hurt my dear.

Because i understand the meaning of love and therefore i will treasure his love despite how he has sometimes failed to meet my expectations, made me sad, made me angry and made me disappointed.


1 Cor 13: 4-8 : Beautiful verses of Love=)

a very lucky girl

i am really envious of this girl. i know her but i think she doesn't know me. we are in the same class for one of the modules this semester. but i know her before this. and i have never talked to her. Every week when i see her, i always think she is really normal. but yet i am envious of her =(

somehow i think because she is so simple, God gave her something so good in return. More than anything else, i think she is a really lucky girl.

night cycling!!

past one wk has been busy busy and more busyness!!>.< really alot of school work piling over me but well i shan't bore you guys with my lessons and studies.

so aniway i went for my hall night cycling yesterday which ended today haha. we cycled from 12 am to 8 am, ntu to east coast park!!! claps claps for our (my) perseverance:) i really had a lot of fun as i jus put the worries about my studies at the back of mind and just enjoy for the night like i did last year FOC:) even though i have to say we were really super duper shagged after the whole thing:X but surprisingly i wasn't feeling tired or sleep;p unlike my darling who really becomes hot-tempered when he is shagged. like tis morning:X lol oh well~~

i took a quite a lot of unglam photos actually so you wan to see just go facebook haha coz i am lazy to upload oopx;p

next wk is going to much much more busy!! pressure and stress>.< so guys wish me luck :)