goal-less

i realise that nowadays i only like to blog when i am feeling down. sign~

suddenly i feel very lost in life amidst all the busyness. Reality seems to have struck me in a bad way that i am seriously wondering what am i doing with my life?

i really feel like moving on with my life, to feel motivated, to feel that i am working towards my goal in life, to excel in everything i do, to become empowered to help those who need help.

but somehow i feel trapped in my comfort zone and stagnant at where i am now.

AND... sharks i am sick again:( i need my mum and sister!!! coz apparently i dun really noe how to take care of myself arghhh~~ this is terrible>.<


God, i really need your strength and grace...

post-exam symptoms

exams are FINALLY over!!! yay!!! feeling so over the moon =)

anyway thanks sharon darling and my dear huiyi for your concern>.< sometimes i jus get a little emo over some stuffs but i am feeling alright now le:)

i am kinda in the lost and don't know what to do mode now that i am home! Apparently there isn't any nice shows on channel 8,5,2, U, 55,54,52 and 51...sigh...and my internet network is abit cranky so i can't seem to load finish any video -_-!! argh... tried loadin the golden compass and The other boleyn girl for umpteen times but the video keep konkin up on me:( haix..and i can't disturb my sister coz her exams are around the corner plus my dear is still having exams(unfortunately) so i also don want to ka jiao him. ok i am BORED but i can't go out too cause i have to stay at home and pei my parents or else they will nag at me again.

so BORED!!!

LIST OF THINGS I WANT TO DO:

1) shop for new clothers and bag
2) go either Kuishinbo or Crystal Jade Korean to eat
3) learn how to make tiramisu from charlene
4) go exercise and lose 5kg within a wk
5) meeting up with dearies who are all so busy :(
6) go overseas for holidays
7) ...

k that's all for now.

i an still bored....

but

At least exams are finally over muahahax

Thank God for seeing me through this examination :)

exam stress and emo

exams and stress are good friends. AGREE? totally~~

haix.. i tink i hav a super bad time management~started studyin frm 9am till 1 am but only managed to study 3 chpters... duhxx~ WAD AM I DOING? and its like just 4 days more to my exams and wad am i doin nw? BLOGGING!!! haix....

AND.... life is nt totally going the right way for me~

tired of studying~

tired of self-centred ppl~

tired of keep trying

tired of everything~

i need to learn to let go~~

anyway, pls pls visit this youtube link if u r seeing this.. its reallly realli nice:)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d08X2lN669k

it's nt tt easy after all

so much inner struggles...

am i being oversensitive? am i being too demanding? sometimes i hope i am because....
the fact is TRUTH HURTS.... and it hurts so much tt my heart is wounded beyond any words can provide.

words are easy to mouth, easy to say, but action speaks DAMN louder than words.

its no one's fault... but yes it makes me feel worse... coz if it's ur fault u can change, but if its no one's fault, then the truth is .... i can't bear to even write it out cause TRUTH hurts..

combination of sad and joy....i feel TORN....